For Her, With Love.....!

I am sure no one can remember their first steps of life but when you leap around the world now this would never come to your mind that when you took your first steps perhaps there was someone looking at you anxiously filled with tears of joy in her eyes. When you speak fluently in front of an audience mesmerizing them it may never occur to you that there was someone listening to your first utterance with the same interest which was not even understandable. When you finish a classy seven course meals in those luxurious dinners it still will not going to occur that there was a time when you used to let your clothes eat more than you ate but still there was someone to look after and ensure that you get right amount of meal even if it meant wasting most of the food.

I am sure you must remember when was the first season of love in your life, when your heart started beating vigorously seeing that someone special and of course when your heart was first broken but you may not recall how many tearful moments went past at home because of you were ignorant. While you were too busy solving personal problems in your friends life being their god father, you were required at home perhaps to give your shoulders to that person who had just lost some old leaves from her family tree. You always wanted to celebrate your first job with a party bash alongside your friends, you always wanted to see the glitter which came on face of person you sent that red rose bouquet but you might always forget to call on these special moments to that person who was anxiously waiting to hear that good news from your side.

After all these ignorance still when you require need of solace, tranquility you know where is that place. A heart so full of emotions for you that it won't think twice to accept your unreasonable demands, a heart which accepts you only for what you are not for what you can be, perhaps it doesn't matter for her, what matters is you. From my youngest years,till this moment here, I have been around the world, met many people but never felt like coming home to a place I've known until I came back to home knowing that someone will be anxiously waiting the same way she did when I first went to my school having tears in my eyes, when I first came back from my collage after my results, when I came back jumping victorious from my game or flooding with tears losing, we together have seen all these good and not so good times, I may have backed out from her bad times due to my unavailability for an excusable reason but she was always available when I needed her in my good or bad times. It was the case from your childhood and it will remain this way forever. This is one love which is unconditional and yes which is never going to question you to prove it all the time. When I address the person who belongs to the other side of this relationship then its none other than the greatest creation god has ever done: Its the "Mother".

As per a famous saying every successful man has a woman behind him but it can't be more true that every person is what he/she is because of a woman, his/her mother.Its ironical though that she is the same person who agrees for staying apart for which as an infant you couldn't bear distance for a minute. In later stages for your own good she accepts forcefully this exile and pain to stay away from you just for your happiness. Her great sacrifice most of the times goes unnoticed when you get involved into your personal and professional life, sometimes accusing her to be old fashioned, an unfit for your life style but she still backs you to the fullest. While you still tops her priority list as early days she gradually moves to low levels in your life but she never complains, silently waiting for her turn to come. Being with her family means the world for her, her world starts and ends with her family.


Although we are in 21st century and now the new age woman is independent making all her decisions on her own to ensure she can standout as an individual identity, she is now even a single mother being a sole provider and protector for her child, the siege within working warrior who is ready to answer all the questions world throw at her but I am sure even now for her being identified as a successful mother means the most, may be there are something which never change.

I don't think there should be any special day like "Mother's day" when you remember her importance in your life because you are a part of this world courtesy her. Your existence is the biggest proof of her unconditional tender and care towards you all these times. Sometimes words aren't enough to show your gratitude towards someone this special in your life. The only way you can pay back is to bring a smile on your face when ever she is around, I am sure she doesn't want anything else from you. I hope this won't be as tough as it may seems.

Ruth Ke Hamse Kabhi....

Chilling winter morning and it rained yesterday, morning breeze and the cold wind is making the atmosphere around hard to stay, winter has always been favorite weather when you can chill with your winter ware. I am standing alone waiting, it's been more than two years but still this wait is on.

Not many times when you would feel that need of intimate escape, run away from everybody to a solace where you can spend your time just looking into those eyes which means the world to you. When today I looked at her, I never seen her looking so lovely as she did tonight. Those highlights in her hairs catch my eyes...I felt blinded for a while. With apprehension in heart I made my move:

Me: "Hello"
She: "Hi, I thought you told you won't come here"
Me: "Well, I changed my mind...I think for good"

She gave me a blushing smile and I knew I hit the right cord, then I was dancing with the lady in red creating enemies around who might have thought to get this moment...but I made my swift move first, lucky me!

Time moved on and we became good friends to best friends. We started spending most of our time together, this was the best company we could find and yes we both were enjoying these moments. What will be future none of us bothered to care, we just wanted to enjoy this time together. I can't remember a day when I was not questioned on not completing my work, not finishing assignments or bunking the classes. I knew I didn't had to bother about them because there was someone who would always make it for my misses. I always used to make up to all of my mistakes by singing for her, my only one fan for whom I would sing and sing from my heart, it always worked! I never realized in these times that I was getting addicted to all these. I never missed a chance to hurt her knowingly or unknowingly. Always told "Where else you will go apart from me?", I was always replied with a million dollar smile in return. I intentionally used to tease to get this charming smile, it was worth it.


One day out of blue I was shocked with a question from her "What will happen if I leave you and go away?". Stunned with the question I thought it was a joke but it wasn't, she was very serious. I waited for some time not thinking but looking at her then replied "I'll wait!". She responded "What if I won't come back ever?", Without thinking twice I replied "I'll wait forever!", tears were around in eyes, none of us uttered a word but the haunting silence was screaming aloud, I wished to rewind the moment and erase from existence but it wasn't a possibility..but still I wished I could.

After sometime, I was standing next to her, while she was deep asleep. I knew that this might be one of the last time I would see her, she looked tired of pain, a pain which she held for many years, fighting for survival and search of tranquility for which she was never destined to. In past years I never realized this pain but I was certain of one thing that she knew it and she knew it from long. It's bizarre but at times you pray not for life but for the final faithful departure of loved one because you can't bear living the pain you see every time in their eyes. Its good enough to give a sudden death every time you see it in their eyes.

When I said that you won't find a place after leaving me, I never realized that I'll be haunted by those memories down the lane. I always question myself if I wasn't careful enough to read through the lines or read in her eyes for the message? I never gave importance of her existence in my life but only now I realize that I should have asked myself first what will I do when she would leave me? Today I am standing here waiting for someone knowing will never come but the wait is on........

Love Is All Around!!!

I had sensed her staring at me and still felt strangely calm about being observed. I looked at her and felt an instant spark of connection which I had never felt before. I walked slowly towards her and we held the gaze for sometime. Passing through the corridors of life, I came across many people whom I instantly found attractive but this time it was different, this time it felt like meeting a long lost friend.

The beginning of the conversation was instantaneous - First pleasantries, our origins, accommodations, weather, the quality of the food and friendliness of the locals. I was not sure earlier whether she is new to the town but after this brisk conversation I knew we sailed the same ship reaching this city. Onlookers, however, would have detected the subtle flirtation as we spoke directly into each other's eyes. We walked together taking turns in talking and giving the gaze. The sky seemed bluer, color Red brighter and noise appeared as Music. Every time while I took a glimpse of her, I could feel that she was getting cold shivers. Love was in the air.

We were destined to be together and so we are right here right now. Sometimes I wonder how can people quatify their love? I feel amuzed that the same people who spent thousands of hour talking to each other without seeing question each other to quantify love? Compare themselfs with others and feel low when finding they are not as happy as others. I wonder whether that's love or trading of emotions. We have gathered numerous memories of affection, enjoyment, passion, disagreement and grief. There isn’t a single day spent without a drop of word from either side. She is an inseparable part of my life and an integral part of ME. This relationship has grown and so have we as individuals. We have reached a stage where the goose bumps haven’t survived. We give space and we need some too, this is required in every maturing relationship.

The sky doesn’t seem bluer anymore and the color Red is no more important. But I can still sense love. I can feel the magic existing every time I see her in pain when I am suffering, every time I am gloomy when she is unhappy, every time I can be me when with her, every time she holds my hand, I feel touched by an angel - Every time in her presence, I feel being complete. Life without a friend is like the sky without sun and nothing could be more treasurable than finding a friend in your soulmate. If I be a love doctor and people come to me for advice then I would always suggest them Love being the best medicine of all, I understand that after a period of time with shifting responsibilities and up & downs in life love tends to shade it's color but the only prescription for the question "What if it doesn't work?" would be to double the dose.
I am assured that she is the only person I can be happy with. And I want to be with even if I am not. I have realized over this course of time that Love has managed to be in the air when she is around, we are now inseparable souls. The time has come , we're not two people now we are one second to none.