2008: A Year Not To Forget

I could see the breeze and can feel the cold in air, this soil is far far away from where I spent my last 31st. In last five years I have spent all my new years in different places mostly on my choice but this year, it's different. This year I am here in Bangalore, the ride life has given me this year would be something I won't forget any sooner: a ride of lifetime, a ride that would always remind me that how helpless you can become while destiny plays. I started this year with positive note and was expecting life to become more pleasant but with the turns I saw in the entire year made me sit back and think over with sorrow on the events that came by this entire year. The most unforgattable of all is the departure of my family head, my father. If I could find appropriate words to express my feeling of this greatest grief then it won't be my sorrow but utter most anger on the odious destiny. Family is always the most important part of my life but I know that even being with them would not fullfil the loss of lifetime. This feeling of being cast away and living life on someone elses' term makes me feel hostile and this feeling just gets worst when the events around embarkes the atrocity within. I am angry, sorry, depressed and the mood is somber, this year I have lost a part of me which was free from any of these attributes, sometimes I feel disguised when I see myself and find someone else at my place; standing there to face the music it is not willing to listen, waiting for a change so desparately that even a small spark of hope could burn an entire mountain of sorrow.

Is this the mutual feeling I am sharing with someone or am I lost in the ocean of life, clueless where to be headed.

While keeping the personal loses off the shelf I still couldn't believe that life has not given a single moment otherwise to cherish. Constant beating from all around has really proved that you can't make a choice but to accept the facts. I knew truth is always stranger than fiction but this isn't strange but bizarre and unprecedented. I saw world around me fuming and burning when the fleshes of human bodies were brought out of Taj and Trident, I heard the weeping of family members who lost their loved one, it was grusome and ugly to the core of its extent. An event that embarked a sense of protest which I hope will serve in betterment of humanity. The cross borded tension is on its peak waiting for a war to be broken out, the ultimate step either side might take to break free the hostile environment. I know people around are angry, sorry, depressed and the mood is somber, isn't that the same feeling I went through this year?

While climbing to the acme of a mountain gives you a feeling of pride, to stay there and survive is a challange to withstand the wind of change. The only constant in the world is change and yes when Obama said "Change has come to America", I heard it and the people of America also listen to the music of change and in a historic event America found it's first Afro-Amrican President, a matter of pride for the man and his supporters. This lights hope for an alien on the soil that one fateful day he can expect his descendants to run the country he has served his entire lifetime being called a slave from third world country. But the path on which Obama has commenced his stardom is full of nails, the country as well as the world is getting into deep trouble and the epi-center is America, the first and far most important task ahead for him is to handle the Atlus shrugged and to any streach of imagination this is not going to be a walk on the cake. This will prove his iron if he comes as a winner and glides his country and world to a safer cohesive environment, until then the people around are angry, sorry, depressed and the mood is somber, isn't that the same feeling I went through this year?

While the wind of changes and unprecendented events was on it's peak how can it not crush anything coming on its way and the crash witnessed in stock market around the world is the living example of how choppy things can go. As cancer, the entire world economy collapsed and the virus is still spreading. A time has come when the world doesn't give improtance to anything but to save their own existance. The identity crisis has arrived where the theory of Darwin suits the most "Survival of the fittest". Where is the end for this crisis is a question which no one can answer but surely I can guarantee you that the pain is only going to intensify going forward. While most of the sectors still barred with the downfall are not going to be pardened next year. The beating people around the world are going to get will be really unimaginable to the extent that the very existance of happyness will be questioned. We are surely heading toward this fate until a miracle comes to rescue. Everyone knows this facts but they are afraid to visualise the future which is dark and terrible. A common man out there is angry, sorry, depressed and the mood is somber, isn't that the same feeling I went through this year?

I guess I am in consensus with quite lot of people around the world. 2008 would be never forgotten and with no effort it will be imprinted in my memory with the darkest color, a year of losing hope, faith and happyness. I wished there would be a shop which sell happiness, I would have bought happiness from there and distributed around. But I know that you can't buy happiness, I just wish I could. Amidst all the downfalls I saw a small spark, a spark of life that rejuvenated my lost part and my rendezvous with happyness, her name is "Avaani". My faith on life has strengthen when I saw how amidst all adverse conditions a new life finds it's way to show route to happiness and proves that happy days are bound to come here again.