"Hope" Kills......

Perhaps I wasn’t right when I used to say that there is nothing which can make life to stop, irrespective of all life moves on. The word “hope” can be most deadly of all, it seems now I am in practice of being the victim of this notorious creation. I tried all the ways but I can assure you there is no way out from it. I had seen this happening with others and I used to think that they and letting themselves in weak position, but today I can’t be more sure on the very fact that it’s not just you lose your way out but also unknowingly close other possible ways out.

Although I never got a commitment but this “hope” was always there; a slightest possible chance of getting something desirable can drive you to the paths that would lead to only disappointments. I learnt it not once, not twice but thrice and until that day the “hope” was still there. But now finally I learnt the difference between getting there and being there, the whole world changes in these two scenarios. Life would never be the same now, in past years I had my shades of joy and sadness but this wasn’t the way I expected my “hope” to end leaving me shattered. At times I feel why this always happens to me, when ever I start “hoping” something; it goes off leaving me shattered like this. Am I always wrong in making my decisions or is it my fate? What ever it may be but this experience from the past has taught me the most important lesson of life which is commitment. There are few persons involved in this journey with which I shared my thoughts and feeling, they really helped me throughout and I know they also are saddened about this abrupt ending.

But life moves on and I have learnt this fact again. It’s not like I can’t be happy anymore, I know this is not the end of world. I can still be happy but had it been the case that she was the reason of my happiness; I couldn’t have asked anything more. Anyways I can still get reasons to smile. I have decided one thing that from now on I won’t “hope” but see the irony I am “hoping” I would be able to withstand my past. Now at times I feel that happy endings are only possible in books and fairy-tales.